Last week was not bad; not great but good enough to be somewhat satisfying in the effort I made.
Consistency is doing really well in my plan but whether that translates into a good performance on race day or not; who knows? But I get really tired and am not sure I am in way over my head on this one. Sometimes, no, lots of times, I want to chunk this whole game, take my marbles and go home. In fact, these times come so frequently that I wonder if I still have the motivation to go through all this. And, I keep asking myself "why." Does God really want me to keep on with this? Lots of times I am not sure.
But too, I am so tired all the time. I can sleep almost anywhere at any time. This is the journey I signed up for. In the midst of getting all beat up physically and fatigued to a vegetative state mentally, I still can remember and still find the strength to just keep putting one day after another; one week after another into this training. Who knows what will come out the other side. I guess I will leave that to God and walk by faith not by sight right now. Whatever happens, that will take me home.
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