My ribs still hurt from that turnaround bike crash and I was on that same course yesterday. It wasn't the same turnaround but it was a turnaround that brought fear. Memories and present pain, warned me of what could happen and as I approached the turnaround. I could feel the shakiness and insecurity making it more likely I would fall in my fears.
"Help me here Lord." "Help me here Jesus"
I keep repeating that in my mind and my prayer became reality. The turnaround went safely; no problem.
This morning the ribs seem to hurt worse and in the long term, I wonder; I feel insecure in that here I am again, a confirmed Ironman failure trying this again. And my ribs hurt. The moment has obscured my future and at present I believe the pain and lack of ability. I feel inadequate for this task God has called me out to do.
Then I read a devotional this morning by Charles Stanley which spoke right at me.