Cancer. It seems to take the life out of you sometimes. It is hard to hold the head up in hope with the future so uncertain. Lots of things get put on the back burner of life now, if they even get put on the burner at all. Motivation to do things for the future has to be primed like an old pump. It doesn't come easy like it did with life before cancer. You just don't live with that same level of hope.
Sometimes I find I have spent the day and not done much at all. Cancer seems like living in a doctor's waiting room. It takes my best effort not to get depressed and abandon hope altogether. But, I must. I must look up in faith through all I am going through, mentally and physically, and "run the race that is set before me."
So, I get up from this chair and go do my indoor bike, like I have some event to train for. And, I guess I do. I need to do my best in this fight I am in, looking to God for the strength to go on, and go through whatever tomorrow and cancer bring me.
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