It's hard to slip into the groove of a cancer patient. My heart goes out to more active pursuits than merely surviving. Survival is not enough. Survival without action seems to me to be just another form of sedentariness.
I guess I am feeling too good to think clearly and sedately enough about the situation I find myself in. There haven't been any major side effects, and my strength is coming back from the massive hospital and illness layoff. At this point in time, I feel pretty good. Maybe when the side effects hit, or I get some more disappointing news of my cancer, I will tone down my optimism and get to a more normal depressive lifestyle.
In fact, I don't go to any of the support groups and read their stories. It's depressing. Life is all we have, one day then the next, and I don't want to waste it in fretting that much if I can avoid it. There may be time enough for that later.
Today, I feel really good. I am immensely grateful for this day of health God has given me.
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