Another treatment today, and it is the last until next year. There is so much I would love to do still. However, I am not sure about what the future holds as far as what I can do now, and even when treatment is finished in September of 2026.
So I learn to live with an uncertain future, as if there is a certain one. The old joke comes up. "Want to make God laugh? Tell Him your plans." This cancer business has certainly taught me that we are not much in control at all. We chase the illusion of control, a bubble floating in the wind. Life turns on a dime, and the only way to win this game is to surrender. How many times have I been pushed in a corner I don't have the strength to fight my way out of and just have to give it to God, in humble submission to His way, His will in my life. I just have to let it go.
And so as this treatment process continues, may I have the wisdom to surrender and let God be God in my new life.
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