Yesterday I had the full load of drugs. I am on once-a-week treatment now. However, I have had a few minor side effects. (facial flushing, insomnia, inner tenseness). But I don't feel that bad and will go for a walk this morning.
This limited lifestyle is having negative effects on me as I have a bad case of restless in all this. I want to do more. My memory is too good at thinking of all I could do just a year ago at this time. My birthday is coming up, and I once did a pushup for every year plus one on that day. Now, "don't do too much" is a persistent reminder and aggravator.
I see a bike ride I might want to do. No, what if I fall with this one condition? And the half-ironman I always wanted to do opened up for next year about this time, but probably not for me. I won't be off this program in time for the serious summertime training. And there is always the danger that all this will get really bad.
So, I guess my certain event is the GETTING THROUGH CANCER TREATMENT IRONMAN. It requires no training but massive discipline and consistency, and complete trust in God for His presence and power, whatever, however, this event turns out. I am blessed.
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