The Sunday before my biggest treatment. Altogether, I get all four cancer drugs plus blood thinners, a viral preventer, and an asthma medication. Who could have guessed I could have gone from no meds at all for a few years to this fruit salad of medications? So far, I am bearing up well under all this. In fact, I feel really good. My physical capabilities keep expanding, and mentally, I am in a good place. There are some down times, but the more I am into this lifestyle, the easier it is to navigate these straits.
There is a flu epidemic in our area, and I have avoided crowds and close places with people. I am doing the hermit routine. It isnt't my first choice, but I am adaptable. This too shall pass. I wish things were different, but they are not. I can't change that, but I can give it to God.
The problem is that I give my issues to God and then in a weak moment, take them back. When it gets overwhelming, I give it back to God, and so this goes. If my faith were stronger, I would imagine I wouldn't be taking back so much that I gave to God. Holy Spirit, infuse me with a greater faith that I may release my fears and place all my hopes in God.
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