And the treatment today went well. I have been so blessed to have the oncology team that I have. We have all marched on into this cancer journey, the team, the family, those who care. We are all doing our best to cope and to learn to live with the fear and uncertainty that the word "cancer" provides.
Living with this uncertainty has certainly tuned in the vivid button in life. Things, events, and people are viewed in a more real perspective, which only uncertainty can provide. Life gets real when they tell you that you have cancer.
But I think cancer doesn't create the uncertainty; it only exposes the uncertainty that has always been there. The most fatal and widespread cause of death is life itself. When it will happen is uncertain, but the event itself is quite certain. And the question becomes: how long do I have to live, and what will be my quality of life?"
Yet, uncertainty sometimes seems to put life on steroids. When I write my books and my stories, I don't write about times in the recliner watching movies. No, my books, stories, and blogs are most often about periods of risk and uncertainty.
Looking back, I realize that many times I have narrowly missed death or death has narrowly missed me, that is. I have honestly thought I was going to die on three different occasions. But for some reason known only to God, I was miraculously rescued. Life took on new shades of meaning, and I came to more fully realize that the uncertainty I faced was only uncertain to me. It wasn't uncertain to God. God had always had me in His care, within the certainty of God,
We all face uncertainty daily, whether we have cancer or not. But we don't have to face uncertainty alone. We have a certain God who has us in the palm of His hand, leading us through the perceived darkness of uncertainty, certainly. God tells me fear not, and don't let the clouds of today obscure the sunshine of tomorrow.
