"When you start doubting yourself, remember how far you have come. Remember everything you faced; all the battles you have won, and all te fears you have overcome. Your greatest strength come in your weakest days"
Today was a day of doubt; one of those weakest days. Where can I go from here? What can I do from here? Who can I become from here?
I was diagnosed with A-Fib -erratic beats of the heart, bringing with it the heightened possibility of heart attack or stroke. The numbness caused by this diagnosis still has me in a numbed state. Now it might seem my time to join in the little old men's pill lines to receive a bit a of life to wash down with a bit of water, then wait until lunch or dinner and the next pill line to shuffle to. Not my idea of a life.
The big suspense is how I will take this once the numbness of the diagnosis gives way to reality on hard terms. I just don't know and I just have to depend. Hold my hand Lord
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