For a cancer patient, I guess I had a good training week last week. This week, not so much. The ups and downs seem difficult to deal with. The lack of certainty and stability of issues with the treatment and the side effects often leave me in a state of "what's next?"
Blood thinners make every scrape or bump an issue. Other drugs cause other issues that must be dealt with and lived through. It's all much like running a marathon, of which you don't know much about the course. I remember the Seattle marathon - 36 degrees and pouring down rain- and just about the time when I thought I had faced and overcome all the hazards of the event, I was presented with a huge hill around mile 25. I was spent already, and now I had to climb this bad hill that seemed to go on forever.
So far, I haven't come across that "bad hill" on this course, but I am not sure it isn't out there just waiting for me to be overconfident and think I have weathered the worst of it. So, again, I give this all to God. This time, I hope I have the good sense not to take any of it back from Him and just free-fall with God on this.
