In doing endurance sports I have always hoped that I was an inspiration for others to emulate. But, the thought crossed my mind the other day, as to whether I want to be an inspiration or do I want to inspire. I have long thought they were the same thing but upon reflection I and see there is a big difference. Is it something you want to be or something you want to do. Which takes precedence. Being an inspiration is it about me becoming something, someone to be admired.
As a triathlete in my early eighties now, I really like it when others applaud my performance and think I am a tough old bird for my age. Do I do it for my "old guy" pat on the back. Do I do it for myself to in a quest for own kudos? Can I do it without wanting attention for myself and be satisfied with inspiring others to do what they could all along: challenge their own perceived age limitations?
Upon examining true motives I have often found myself prideful, pounding on my chest like some geriatric Tarzan. When all the time I should consider it a blessing to be healthy enough and willful enough to be this active at this age. For that alone I should be careful to mindful to be humble and grateful, not to be an inspiration but to give inspiration to others, and to give God the glory
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