I It All Comes and Goes in Its Own Good Time

 This is a supper slump for training.  Not sure why.  Perhaps, the Christmas season and all we have here?  Perhaps, it is the fatigue from all the hard outside work I have been doing.?  Perhaps, it's the residual fatigue of months of 10-15 hours of weekly training in biking, lifting, running, mountain biking, and some swimming? And perhaps - I just had my 81st birthday - I am getting too old to cut the mustard anymore?

It really doesn't matter I guess.  I just need some rest, and more sleep, and   Then, perhaps, I will hit this training business full in the face, no stops.  

The truth is that I  have no event to train for.    I am not sure I ever will have something to train for again due to family situations.  Training out of reflex and for health doesn't possess the passion of purpose training for an event does. But, it all comes and it all goes in its own good time along the Miles of the Journey.  Thanks God for the journey. Now, I need to go to bed.  Have to train tomorrow.

It Didn't Fit the Moments

 A couple weeks ago I reached my goal for my 81st birthday by being able to do 82 pushups.   I thought at the time that maybe I could do a 100 on the actual day of my birthday.  Today , the day of my birthday,  I did all my other exercises down to the pushups.  

As I arched braced to do them I felt good that I would be able to do them.  But why?  Why do them?  Something felt  like it would be too many pats on the back - an all about me venture. Somehow it didn't seem right. It didn't  fit well.  This is my birthday.  For some reason I seemed to have a greater sense of humility today.  A friend just lost his wife.  Another person just lost her husband.  A relative is facing cancer treatment, and so on.  It didn't fit the moments.

This game just didn't seem appropriate on this day.  I have been much heralded today already for just living this long and still being able to complete a sentence.  Today, my heart is at rest.  I am grateful,

I stopped at 30 pushups and felt good about not going for gold.  Thank you God for that.  Thank you God for this Happy Birthday