Sort of a milestone today. It is like Thoreau wrote that he left the woods for as good a reason as he went there. He had spent enough time on this one. (not exact) Not that Thoreau never went back into the woods anymore, but the degree of focus had changed. I understand that with triathlon. I might consider doing another one. But I, too, have other lives to live.
Initially, my deliberation itself suggested I might be being turned toward different things. Usually, I am all in on the possibilities of competing in a triathlon. This time, not so much. After I did my own yes-no thing over this, I finally got real and prayed about it.
The answer wasn't long in coming. I noticed a certain excitement at the possibility of "not" doing the events. I began to picture myself at the event, and I found that picture suggested I didn't want to be there.
In my picture, I heard people say, "You are my hero. I hope I can do what you do at your age." Those were always such a compliment in the past, and I wondered if I was showing up just to soak up some of these compliments on my age and ability. Was this another "look at me" exercise? Glorifying myself based on one characteristic - being old? How is God glorified in all this?
Then the validation of my answered prayers came when I tried to book rooms - the prices!! Unbelievable! I think triathlon went on up the road to a better neighborhood and left this old worn-out, fixed-income athlete in the low-income housing.
But God is in the low-income housing too, and I am happy there. And though I have been at this a long time, I meet this new dawn with a smile because God's in it..